Surprise

Surprises, they come mostly in 2 ways. One is happiness and shock. I'm one of that person who remembers from everyone's birthdays to anniversaries just to surprise them. I'm the most excited person even for others special days. I just love birthdays. But I don't know how to express this. Only one year in my life till now I got a surprise birthday gift which I didn't expect till then. It's so sad when you expect something special for your special day and most of the important people in your life doesn't even remember it.

Me and other kids who were born in July in our colony in Mumbai.

So now when I turned 24 yesterday. I thought to write down my little sadness. From a very childhood when I lived in Mumbai birthday parties were like something compulsory party of the year in everyone's life. But when I shifted to Kerala it just turned into a day that you have to go to the temple and make "Payasam" South Indian sweet dish at your home. A big celebration day turned into a very quiet normal day. Even after some time I just felt that I didn't want to celebrate due to this kind of environment. My Mumbai special birthday schedule is like going to school in birthday dress with toffees or gifts to distribute in my classroom. Everyone would sing the birthday song and after class, my family would have a small party which include a small number of neighbours and friends. Those were the great days of my life compared to the last few years.

My first birthday party. Me, My Mother and Poonam Didi

When I shifted to Kerala many things suddenly changed but I didn't think that change included my special day too. So, as I already told that I didn't have that one or two best till college. So, no one was there to gift me a surprise or remember and wish me. I didn't know it could become a big deal until I reached college. In college when everyone gave the surprise cakes to there friends and when no one knew or remembered my birthday. I felt very depressed for the first time.

I even wished that my birthday would have been on summer vacations rather than the rainy season so that I would not have to be this much sad. 

     

My First Birthday

On one birthday I got an unexpected gift on my birthday. Which I won't forget in my life and that gift was a set of earrings. I didn't expect anyone would remember my birthday even my new best friend. She gets missed the dates and forgets. Last year she called me on my birthday. I obviously didn't expect her to call but she called me. We had a good talk and even hangup but seriously she didn't remember to wish me.



I think many people nowadays only remember your birthday just because of social media. Thanks to them everyone at least wishes you even if they don't really chat with you for the whole year. Last year, I tested that thing too. I have turned off my birthday privacy. So I didn't get a wish until it was a late night. After one of my friends posted a happy birthday wish I got a few numbers of wishes but really don't you feel wasted if you too are not on anyone's priority list.

Me, Rohan Dada, Amma And Achan

I do get a birthday cake to cut but that too because I save up money and cakes are favourite. I do go out and buy the cake every year. My parents buy me a dress until now. But I have never have had my that special birthday party which I expected after a time period. Now today even though I'm writing about this that is to let you know that after a long time of expectation I just stopped expecting. Some say it's getting used to being in the situation. Maybe it's something like that. This will be my first birthday where I didn't even babbler about it to anyone.

Uncle, Aunty and Me

Even yesterday one of my best friends remembered me to send a text but the other one didn't even remember even we met face to face he had forgotten about my birthday to wish me so I thought let it be. 

My Parents gifted me a pair of Anklet and Waist Chain.

Parents Aren't Matured Enough

Sometimes, our parents are so immature than kids especially Indians parents. But if you are an only girl child. They don't understand the everyone has there own things going around. They are so busy themselves so do we. Yes, they are worried but they don't understand sometimes we youngsters can make good decisions. Indians parents are like children. Where the children are 18 or 80. They just think. We are kids and are also excited about everything so we are rushing and making a sudden decision. from our studies to our kid's studies. I sometimes don't understand that what my parents think about this matter. Because sometimes I'm too young to take a decision but I'm also too big to play around. Can't participate in a grownup conversation but I still do it anyway. But I just get confused because for this they sometimes call me a rebel.

You may have heard loving is selflessness but don't you think loving can also be selfish. Parents can't let go of their kids when they are full grown up and at the age of getting married especially, Indian parents. Even when it comes to our career. All say chase your dream. But I don't know how to chase a dream when they say I'm not ready to take that first little step on my own.

Nowadays many countries encourage doing part-time jobs while studying. But even it comes to India its due to his or her poverty or child labour. In Korea, every boy citizen whether he is rich or pure famous or commoner has to enroled for two years of compulsory military service after a certain age for some years. They can work according to there age and they get paid. Girls can voluntarily enlist.

its just so funny all they need is that their child to grow up and be independent. But when the time arrives "you're just not allowed to grow up. Our decisions are not taken seriously or hindered. I know in every generation most of the children have faced the same situation. But as time goes some of them themselves turn into these parents without realizing this. They may always say to share everything with them but sometimes we kids find it difficult to say everything because at some point we may have shared something important to us but they didn't take it will that much of seriousness. we lose our interest in sharing with them because of their ignorance.

So we tend to our peer groups because they understand what we want or want are we thinking. Because when we start going to school we spend a lot of time with these guys. We influence them in many decision making so do they. It's not our parent's fault or ours because it is like that. they are more worried than, they are more adventurous that's all. because when it becomes about us they tend to be worried than strength.

I have felt many times that my parents and I are from totally different worlds. have you heard about the multiverse or something like that? They don't understand my feelings about something and I don't realize there decisions sometimes. But, it the great thing in our lives. What we fight on today become the reason to laugh in future. We have parents but not everyone in the world doesn't have one. So be happy with them whenever you can. They are trying to protect us in there own way from falling.

This a picture took while we were on a family trip but a number of fights happened before this picture was taken and after too. But it's the best picture I had on my whole trip I think.

My Small Family